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Chini Heart ♥

Hi! It's Lena, i'm 20.

I challenge life.
I discovered the beauty of tumblr.

I'm neophyte to tumblr yet i'm appreciative,
to the blogs of appreciation.

Pls allow me to metamorphosize
& that is if u fluffly follow me back.

Yep, i'm very neologistic so enjoy my company.

The grass I'm still nourishing the roots.
The strings I got them tangled within.
The vessel It is cracked.
God used to love cracked vessels coz with them His light could get in&out.

So bummers, whatevs, make way

May 7 is my Big day.

I love Spongebob. ♥

Impailed to ♡ Clandestine in Nature ♤

I am a known to be a woman with staggering strength and renowned courage. My confidence comes from within as I stand for the truth and stick to what I believe. But here comes the cliche. It’s a cliche to say this cliche that everything changes, nothing’s permanent. I could feel my body aching all over after several dance practice routines. I couldn’t even walk nicely, my muscles are sore, gosh, I am really getting old. I feel so weak now. Sickness comes after sickness goes. I am so pathetic. It is like I am easily beaten by a whirlwind without a strong base. I really need to go home. This reminds me of a scriptural passage from Alma, ‘Built your foundation upon the rock of Christ’ somethin like that. I wanna go home. I miss the Church. I miss myself. I am stronger to where I belong. I do not fit here. I really need to go.

“You just don’t know my fears right now. I’m pressured. Days that come, do feel like a ticking bomb. Help me, Oh God. Help me enjoy this thing & not think of anything else. Help me to bring my best in every decision that I make. I just want them to be happy and act free for themselves. I want them to laugh, I want them to achieve what they all like. Please help me Father to collate all the ideas and suggestions, mine & others’. I’m terrified Lord, but thy will be done. I know you are just right by my side. I love you. ☆☆☆”


Hey you. Yes YOU. I can have everything that I need to feel when I am with you. But the feeling of always waiting& feeling left out makes me feel blue.

Hey you. Yes YOU. You are a nice person with a kind heart. But why understanding your different ways, I find it so hard.

Hey you. Yes YOU. Having dealt with my peculiar self, I am sorry. Now we do not have to worry. But I am not sure of the what’s gonna be/s.

Hey you. Yes YOU. You may think I am too shallow. But believe me it takes my heart to be ripped out to say all those things to you.

Hey you. Yes YOU. Be well, I can see you are sad. That is the most painful I have seen so far. You’ll be fine, please don’t get mad.

Hey you. Yes YOU. Yes, I got mixed up. I got angry, I didn’t realize I have that gut. But I guess this is now for real. Help me, oh God.

Hey you. Yes YOU. I miss you. I do not know if this is the last time but I miss you. You got me sleepless, weigh less, loneliness, what more could I say. I miss you, is all.

Hey you. Yes YOU. I love you. I don’t know when did it start & I am clueless when will it end. But I love you, of all the unsure things in this world I know this kind of feeling is true. I love you.


"This life will hit you, hard, in the face,wait for you to get back up so it can kick you in the stomach. But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air”- Sarah KaySurvivor of the Nagasaki bombing, 1945


"This life will hit you, hard, in the face,
wait for you to get back up so it can kick you in the stomach.
But getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste of air”
- Sarah Kay

Survivor of the Nagasaki bombing, 1945

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Everything you love is here


Everything you love is here

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“One. Do not promise when you’re happy.
Two. When you are angry, do not respond.
Three. Do not decide when you’re sad.”

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“When a girl is acting like she doesn’t care about you anymore, that’s when she needs you the most.”

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“I love writing. I love the swirl and swing of words as they tangle with human emotions.”

James A. Michener (via maxkirin)

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Life sucks from the very root. Temporal happiness put you into the deepest abyss of sadness just & you never see it coming. Great. Being fooled, that’s so human. You could either be happy&sad with guilt or feel sad but achieve peace from within. I’m talking to myself now, coz it’s getting harder for me to find a sweet release. And I know no one understands. No one. I’m so neurotic that I can’t even sleep. I guess I need to sacrifice something that I love in exchange to a greater good. But I need to think. I want to confide to God but I’m ashamed of my past deeds. I turn to Him over&over but I do stumble over&over. I hope I could get through this. Soon.